What Would You Have Me Do, Lord?
Today was a very hard day for me. Not like any of them are easy, but today was especially hard because Nani (Sister of My Heart), went home to Minnesota. Thank you precious friend for being here with me for an entire month, and for walking with us through the darkest valley of our lives. Thank you again dear Walter, for allowing Nani to be away for so very long...
I want to thank ALL my family, friends, neighbors, employers and co-workers for your never-ending expressions of love to David and me; we were, and I still am so very blessed to have each and every one of you in my life.
Today was mostly spent working in my office on very unpleasant business. Looking at David's death certificate was one of the hardest things to do, and made me literally sick inside. I cried and cried...
The house is completely empty tonight, the silence is deafening, and I feel so very, very alone. No more date nights, no more half a dozen calls a day just to tell me he loves me, no more emails, no more cards, no more flowers, no more hugs, no more conversations, no more anything from the man that loved me for so very long. I had no idea how lonely I would feel, and how much I could ache inside...
The journey that David and I were on has come to an end, and I will now begin my own journey... While I'm a little scared and apprehensive about my future, I feel a peace that I know comes only from God. It is most certainly a 'peace that passeth all understanding.'
My prayers are now, What would you have me do, Lord? Lead me on a path that gives You glory. Having been in the ministry (on the side) for most of my adult life, I've always loved to touch others in need, so I trust that God will guide my steps to do something worthy for His Kingdom. I know that God has a Master Plan, and that HE knew David and Eric would be leaving this world early, so I'm certain that He will use my experiences to somehow touch others...
I will be going back to work at Skyline Properties, resuming my Assistant Branch Manager position on February 16th. I will probably work 3/4 time for a while. My employer had some very kind and encouraging words for me today; thank you! And David's employer has continued to walk by my side and support me; thank you. You are truly the greatest employers!
So many of you have contacted me today, because you knew that Nani was leaving and I would feel the void. Thank you so much for your kindness! I have also received multiple invitations for the next month to some very fun events. I am so very appreciative for all of the wonderful offers; your hearts are so loving and kind, however, I'm not very good company right now, and you all know how I don't like to let anyone down. I feel the need to spend time with myself for a couple weeks, but will definitely welcome time together soon. Thank you for understanding.
I also wanted to mention that many of you have asked me to continue my blog, due to the fact that it would be nearly impossible to write to everyone individually, and so I will. And yes, I will also return to writing The Next Level very soon.
I want to thank EVERYONE who came to David's service. I purposely made it 'private' and small, because that's how David wanted it. AND... I couldn't bear to have just 'anyone' invading my personal life. That is also why I didn't, and won't submit an Obituary to the paper, if any of you are watching for it.
Thank you again for your continued love and friendship. I need you all, and am truly thankful that you are in my life.
With Much Love,
Linda
I want to thank ALL my family, friends, neighbors, employers and co-workers for your never-ending expressions of love to David and me; we were, and I still am so very blessed to have each and every one of you in my life.
Today was mostly spent working in my office on very unpleasant business. Looking at David's death certificate was one of the hardest things to do, and made me literally sick inside. I cried and cried...
The house is completely empty tonight, the silence is deafening, and I feel so very, very alone. No more date nights, no more half a dozen calls a day just to tell me he loves me, no more emails, no more cards, no more flowers, no more hugs, no more conversations, no more anything from the man that loved me for so very long. I had no idea how lonely I would feel, and how much I could ache inside...
The journey that David and I were on has come to an end, and I will now begin my own journey... While I'm a little scared and apprehensive about my future, I feel a peace that I know comes only from God. It is most certainly a 'peace that passeth all understanding.'
My prayers are now, What would you have me do, Lord? Lead me on a path that gives You glory. Having been in the ministry (on the side) for most of my adult life, I've always loved to touch others in need, so I trust that God will guide my steps to do something worthy for His Kingdom. I know that God has a Master Plan, and that HE knew David and Eric would be leaving this world early, so I'm certain that He will use my experiences to somehow touch others...
So many of you have contacted me today, because you knew that Nani was leaving and I would feel the void. Thank you so much for your kindness! I have also received multiple invitations for the next month to some very fun events. I am so very appreciative for all of the wonderful offers; your hearts are so loving and kind, however, I'm not very good company right now, and you all know how I don't like to let anyone down. I feel the need to spend time with myself for a couple weeks, but will definitely welcome time together soon. Thank you for understanding.
I also wanted to mention that many of you have asked me to continue my blog, due to the fact that it would be nearly impossible to write to everyone individually, and so I will. And yes, I will also return to writing The Next Level very soon.
I want to thank EVERYONE who came to David's service. I purposely made it 'private' and small, because that's how David wanted it. AND... I couldn't bear to have just 'anyone' invading my personal life. That is also why I didn't, and won't submit an Obituary to the paper, if any of you are watching for it.
Thank you again for your continued love and friendship. I need you all, and am truly thankful that you are in my life.
With Much Love,
Linda
Press on toward the goal, press on toward the prize... Philippians 3:14
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